I'm certain that the last loss of the season is harder to bear than any other.
For the bulk of the season, after a loss you're only a week away from another chance to win. But that's not the case with the final loss. Whether it comes in Round 26, the first week of the finals, or the second or the third, or even the grand final, that loss brings with it a sense of emptiness.
It's a feeling that there is no next week. That we have to now venture forth into that long barren period known as the off-season. We have to try and remember what it was we used to do on the weekends. And we have to learn how to look forward to something on the weekends other than seeing our team play.
PHOTO GALLERY: The agony and the ecstasyThat's where I find myself now after the Dragons' nailbiting loss to the Broncos. I'm certain that there are people out there who were just waiting for the Dragons to lose, so they could drag out the choker tag. Well I'm certain the Red V's effort against Brisbane will stop them dead. That was an amazing effort from the Dragons. With the amount of ball the Broncos had they would have had the game won by halftime.
Yet the home side was forced to opt for a field goal late in the first 40. In the second half, we still hung around and refused to go away, ending the game in regulation at 12-all and forcing the Broncos to extra time to beat us.
So yeah, losing sucks. But I can live with a loss like that. A loss where the team throws everything they have at their opponent and plays hard right to the end. If we had to lose in the finals, that's the way I'd choose to go out.
It's a loss the marks the end of an era. The end of the three years we had Wayne Bennett. He might have made a few curious decisions in recent weeks (while I never expected his visit to Newcastle this week to have any effect on the Dragons it was still a dumb thing to do) but the fact remains that he brought us our first premiership since 1979. That buys Bennett an enormous amount of leeway with me.
I'm not quite ready to think what a new coach will mean for St George Illawarra. I'm still trying to adjust to the idea of a lot of weekends in the near future where there are no Dragons games.